2016 Journal Entries
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Illusions command your senses.
Ego commands your mind.
Desire commands your body.
Separation commands your soul.

​Reflection 16-01
Some things I have discovered.
Your core essence can be accessed, immediately.
Your subconscious wants its needs noticed and fulfilled.
Your Higher Self looks after and protects you even when you do yourself ill.
You have resistant narratives based on old assumptions and flawed perceptions.
It is possible to integrate your core essence into daily living.
There are states of awareness beyond your core essence. 
You don’t need to process every part and problem, i.e. the Gordian Knot of your
    subconscious. Just cut to the core and live from there.
Expanded awareness gives you expanded skills.

Reflection 16-02
Simply defined, difficult to execute.
We are all part of a Divine Intelligence.
Consciousness is your original beingness.
Free will determines the quality of your choices and depends on the level 
of awareness you have now.
Thought is truly creative.
Your conditioning is the only thing standing in your way.

Reflection 16-03 
The mind naturally goes to an inner space of calm, unforced.
The body easily relaxes to a “ground state’ when given the chance.
Relaxing the mind and body unblocks access to the larger, more mythical you.
We are truly more mythical, allegorical, and feeling beings than we know. The calculating, logical aspect is a veneer.
We have created a culture that promotes the logical and denies the mythical, at our loss. 

In Meditation 16-04
This time I fell into a deep sleep almost immediately upon relaxing. That's ok, I must have needed it. But did some of the work when I awoke near the end.

In Meditation 16-05
Meditation to connect with my Grandmother. Deep meditation, opened third eye (indigo) and open throat (blue), open gut charka (golden), all glowing and projecting outward. Opening channels to communicate and all was working fine and then I lost my concentration about 40 minutes into it. Was getting it then it just "turned off". Decided to try again another time. But felt that this would work. I was opening the door but did not get it all the way open yet. 

In Meditation 16-06
Performed Lilian Eden's "Between Worlds", 1 hour meditation. Wow! I have tried this one twice before but fell asleep each time. It's about contacting a deceased loved one. I fell into an exceedingly deep trance quickly. She asked that I summon the deep indigo of the third eye. I am already well practiced at that. It came and then she directed me to swirl the indigo around my head and expand to swirl around the room. Then golden light from the dan tien expands to fill the room. Normally I would have lost my focus by then and fallen asleep. But when I went into the indigo I thought of my Uncle Ted. It came from no where. The thought of him was so strong, it provided the focus on concentration to continue while being alert. Over and over Uncle Ted. I knew and wanted it to be him that showed up. At the proper point I could feel him there, see his face, and hold his hand. I almost cried. I told him that I had not thought about it but he represents the only solid, honorable man of good intention that I knew as a young boy. I felt his warmness then and he said that "son, you are doing just fine, trying to live by honor and honesty." Such words made me feel wonderful. We continued on remembering good times, sharing feelings and each other's warmth – while with no words. He faded away into a whiteness. I remained alert and focused for the remaining minutes of the hour. Wow! What a surprise.

Reflection 16-07
The path is through forgiveness and connection. Dignity is respect for yourself. Honor is respect for others. Loyalty is remaining true to your ideals. Kinship is knowing that we are part of all. Generosity is realizing abundance exists. Courage is acting on your ideal. Temperance is is an ideal ruling over lesser desires. Veracity is being truthful to yourself. All else falls into place. 

Reflection 16-08
Neither dream world or natural world are real. They are different in their structures and rules. They are continuity or discontinuity, solid or diffuse, time or no-time, and linear or nonlinear. 

Reflection 16-09
There is no power or powerlessness. 
There is only choice.
There are no flaws. 
All is as it is in perfection.
There is nothing missing. 
How could there be in this Universe. 
Words can form questions that are unreal.
When you feel angry or frustrated, who is it that feels this – the Ego! If it is real then put it on the table and show it to me.

Reflection 16-10
Intellect is a trap of acquisition and pride. You are never smart enough so you continue to acquire knowledge, which is mostly an illusion. Then you become prideful of the amount of knowledge and apparent swiftness of your mind.
Compassion is an expression of love, not knowledge. It comes from the heart,  not the head. Love is the ability to see every circumstance and every being as perfect just as they are. It’s being able to see the divine in everyone. Total acceptance of all things, being perfect in what is. We are good because we are already truth, love, and beauty. 

Reflection 16-11
To choose to serve self over being of service to others destroys us all. If only one survives then none survive. We deny our innate goodness and as a result take on the illusion of guilt. Our sense of emptiness is not reflected in the fullness of the Universe. Thus is the failure of our Intelligence. 

Insight 16-12
I had a few experiences of just not wanting to trod this path. Ancient writings are all so intense and a lifetime of practice burdened with the hope that the average person they might experience happiness and meaning.
I have gone through these cycles all my life, not wanting to be the guide, teacher, the pathfinder. Yet I find myself always returning to it, reporting back, so others might find meaning through my presence, counsel, or writings. But I am not a sage, oh no, or a guide, guru or even a spokesperson for it all. Perhaps a scribe, just getting it down into words. 
The turning point of returning to this path is always an unusual incident that alerts me to get “back to work”.
There is so, so much beyond our awareness and understanding. But yet, we start from where we stand and move forward to understanding the segment of the road on which we stand. It’s all we can do. There will be more road next time. Just do the work for now. 

Reflection 16-13
If love is truly universal, then it is hardly restricted to just humans. It would apply to atoms, rocks, snails and stars. It is our false definition of love that blocks us from knowing this. 

Reflection 16-14
We believe that what is a dream is real and that what is real is a dream. Our forgotten dream is that we are all pure, good and have the ability to express universal love. Our seeming reality constantly is interrupted by the failure of our senses, the emptiness of our power and the reluctance of our creativity.

Reflection 16-14
The intuitive sense elevates your level or perception. The emphatic sense is being and seeing the world through the eyes of another. Feeling their feelings without your judgement. 
This is the path to be with another and be with their feelings but not reactive to them. It is a way to disconnect from your regular reactions to another by connecting to them more directly. You move from a dissociated connection, to an associated connection and finally to a virtual connection of being them. Your body is still you and your mind is yours but your senses and feelings are theirs. You view from their eyes and feel with their heart. 

In Meditation 16-15
What is my focused concentration vs. my narrative while in meditation? There is a definite difference in my mind, eyes closed meditating, when I drift into a narrative and story making. Then there is the other situation where I am focused on the indigo color, sustaining it while being non controlling and non expectant.
With the narrative there is some part of me that is watching the story, engrossed and lost in it, associating with it. With the indigo color I am present and the color is “out there”. it is as though I stepped into another room, away from the story room.