2020 Journal Entries
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Lucid dreaming, deeper meditation, expanded awareness,
​realized consciousness. Then home again.

Reflection 20-01
2019 and 2020 were years of being pounded physically by medical thunder storms and lightning. Much time for exploration and discovery was lost. Eventfully the storms subsided to gentle rains and life could attempt to proceed somewhat normally. Thus the medical distractions were over and writing/journaling could resume.

Reflection 20-02
I am starting a progressive series of deeper meditation studies and practices. There are 6 major sections. The whole series takes about 6 months with practice, 30-60 minutes, daily. 
The first step was very familiar and I moved quickly that month’s material in about a week. Nothing new yet. In the second step I went into a deeper trance. The defining characteristic of this is that I more easily acknowledged that  I was drifting from empty mind  into narrative mind. These narratives were meaningless stories and scenes that were coming from the thinking mind. They were much more easily dismissed now. And without summoning the “blue indigo light”, I was able to release these narrations almost before they started. I could see them “forming” and I would dismiss them. Some where in the middle of step 2 I had the realization of what empty mind is. Some part of my consciousness was still there but not part of the narrative. The narrative was gone but a consciousness remained. I was fascinated. Empty but there, alive without thinking. Quite remarkable. A big milestone.

Reflection 20-03
In step 3 I was continuing to develop the trance sequence, not unlike in hypnosis, supported by the HynoSync type sounds to lead me into a state where the analytical brain was off-line and the body totally relaxed and detached as in a sleep state. The same thing happens in hypnosis but the subject is lead by their subconscious via a hypnotherapist. The HypnoSync sounds seems to do the same via a different mental avenue.
This leads you to a state where you are totally non-thinking or at least able to recognize thinking starting again and you disperse it. In my case it is not “thinking” that tries to restart. It is more in the form of a “story” that tries to restart. A relevant or irrelevant story begins and you sort of drift into it. Then within a few seconds you realize that and disperse the story. You then return back to the sort of floating non-objective state. In the end you are there, but not there, body distracted, almost paralyzed.

Reflection 20-04
Step 4 – refining the trance entry sequence. Removing mental obstacles and beliefs to deep trance reality. Acknowledging your fears of this sort of exploration. Also realizing that none of your fears are true and to just keep working to realize the truth of that. There is much content in these sections. My own work prior to starting this verifies these first 4 steps. In fact I have been making progress prior to starting this process.

Reflection 20-05
Step 5 – Used the standard trance entry process. Moving more towards body asleep, mind awake stage. I am learning how to not interfere with the process and how to not force a next mental expectation. Let it be what it will be. Go with what happens. I was flipping between associative and dissociative experience. Was feeling like it was working, whatever “working” means. I stayed with the associative point of view, not watching but experiencing. Tried not to control what would present itself next. Instead I just seemed to drift to somewhere – unknown at first – then to be at that planet of mist that had my friends there. Just let it happen, whatever comes is OK. Don’t try to predict or expect.

Reflection 20-06
Step 6 – Got an image of a broken paint brush and broken writing pen. Putting them back together and feeling expanded and full of message. Deep trance problem solving: This is like deep hypnotic suggestion but you are aware enough and focused enough to make your own suggestions. Yet the depth of the trance is profound! Truly body asleep and hyper focus and fully awake. Both nonverbal and verbal sides of the brain are active and balanced.
This is the next level.

Reflection 20-07
I have been working only 3 months on the progression of meditation exercises. I have indeed learned three new levels of deeper meditation. I have learned how to put my body asleep and remain mentally awake and focused for up to 90 minutes on good days. Step 2 is a loss of sensation of the body and a new sense of expanded presence. Step 3 is an even deeper and more expansive sense of awareness. It’s hard to describe, but I know it when I am there. It’s not totally different from my Lucid Dreaming at night. When I seek narrative, it comes. When I stay open and not assuming then it’s an empty mind. I will now search in that empty mind instead of populating it with mind stuff.


The excerpts from the journal entries takes a pause at this point. 
Entries for 2021 and onward will be entered at a later date.